?

Log in

No account? Create an account
June 12th, 2003 - an albuquerque not animate be armada. — LiveJournal [entries|archive|friends|userinfo]
Okrzyki, przyjaciel!

[ website | My Website ]
[ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ]
[ archive | journal archive ]

June 12th, 2003

A MIRACLE [Jun. 12th, 2003|09:59 am]
Okrzyki, przyjaciel!
Not quite up to the loaves and the fishes, but ... Monday night I ran out of smokes and put on a 'stage 2' patch, corresponding I think to 21 mg/day. Wore it through yesterday, took it off before bed. Today, I have a patch in my pocket, but haven't felt really like i need to put it on.

Last year when I quit I went cold turkey and basically obsessed over it for 2 weeks and was worthless to all around me.
This time seems scarily easy, tho maybe I haven't hit the wall yet.

Of course every time I start back up again, part of it is feeling like 'oh, quitting isn't THAT bad, I can do it again.' Part of it also is that the whole action of smoking is innately pleasurable, independent of satisfying the need to keep your serum nicotine level up. But for me the biggest part is that there's nothing really that replaces the license smoking gives you to periodically tell the world to fuck off and take 5 minutes where you're simply satisfying a sensual pleasure. The only thing close is going to the bathroom with a magazine for #2, but you can smoke way more often than you can shit.
link1 comment|post comment

navigation
[ viewing | June 12th, 2003 ]
[ go | Previous Day|Next Day ]